Anxiety Ridden to Anxiety​ Rid-of

I use to be the most anxious anxiety-ridden person I have ever met and or heard of. If you talk to anyone who knew me as a teenager or during my early recovery process, they will without a doubt say the same thing. As I started to take personal responsibility for my own life, my terrible “mental illness” has dissipated. In retrospect, I’ve realized for myself, as the drugs began to detox from my body, that it was more of an energetic illness than a mental illness. Energetically I was not aligned with my true self and the root cause of that was a closure of my throat chakra.

I have come to learn that my anxiety was a direct response to my inability to speak my truth and fear of confrontation. I found myself in places with people doing things I hated for years. I do not think this is a unique situation and the only reason I am speaking out about it is I believe it could bring awareness to others suffering from anxiety as well.

I hated school, I knew the structure was corrupt and the information was useless but the only people I could find who believed me were the “misfits.” I didn’t even want to be friends with the “bad kids,” but I found it was the only way I could find some validation for my intuitive thoughts and feelings about the world at large. I didn’t like cheating, stealing and lying, but I did love the drugs. I loved the elated feeling of euphoria, it was the closest to God I could get. But doing bad things and doing drugs gave me even more anxiety.

Like I mentioned before my throat chakra was closed “af,” my communication was also terrible. I would choke on my words of truth like I was saying the worst swear word in the world. It was like that for years, really until I started the blog, found some other modern mystics I could get totally get real with via the internet and prayers answered. I then knew I wasn’t crazy, but I was waking and was a wounded healer.

Clearing my throat chakra has been some of the hardest work I have ever done, if not the hardest. But the most rewarding and biggest catalyst to growth and expansion than any drug or retreat could ever do and I did it all by myself. This is not to say I didn’t do extensive work with counsellors, therapists and healers. But ultimately they were just guides and I was the one who did the work.

When I started doing the work by taking full responsibility for my healing and stopped putting myself in energetic places with the wrong people and things, everything started to shift. This has taken just over 4 years to do. That’s not to say Mental health is not to be taken lightly, it is very serious and is a scientific physical matter along with a spiritual one. Both must be considered while healing.

I can’t help you with the physical aspects of your mental health, that is for a professional, but I can help you with your Spiritual Healing. If you would like to start work on finding your voice, in order to start sharing your message please don’t hesitate to contact me. I want to know what’s holding you back? What do you want to share with the world? Seriously, I want to help you come out of the spiritual closet and step into your power.

Awakening Shakti.

Yesterday I met the powerful Feminine Energy that is Shakti. I attended a small intimate women’s circle, with the intention to find inspiration to create and establish more connections. We danced, we chanted, we shared, supported and bathed ourselves in loving vibrations. It was a journey of nourishment for the Women’s soul. An individual and collective awakening of Her Universal Energy Force (Shakti). The Tea Lounge, where the ceremony was held, welcomed you with homemade Chia and sweet little cocoa-maca balls.

Once we finished the savoury goodies we moved into the second room where the ritual began. Being exclusive and sacred I won’t share too much detail. I will however share my favourite keep sake of the day and mental picture. We all sat in a circle holding our hands in a Moodra over our Heart Space. The facilitator guided us through a Divine Chant, she kept count with her beaded Mala. We repeated the Mantra 108 times, delicately, she strung each wooden bead along keeping us on track. The collective of our voices emanating a vibration that could hum you to sleep and awakened your soul to dance all at once.

The event was polished off with a one hour Sound Bath. We all relaxed in Shavasna while the fullness of sounds and vibrations washed over us. Waking refreshed and serene we were gifted a Nourished Women swag bag filled with handcrafted souvenirs and a gratitude letter. This experience left me feeling inspired by Women, Spirit, Gaia and my own Inner Divinity. I would highly recommend this Ceremony to other women interested in awakening and embodying the powerful Feminine Energy of Shakti within herself.

Contact Abneet Sanhar (Holistic Nutritionist + Chef + Feminine Embodiment Coach) to take part in Ceremonies such as “Awakening Shakti” and other nourishing rituals. www.nourishedwoman.ca

Saturn Return.

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”
Anais Nin

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There has been some extraordinary changes to my inner and outer essence since I’ve turned 27. Saturn moved into the sign of Capricorn on December 21st 2017, marking my first Saturn Return. During this time I have transitioned from Maiden to Mother and broken through the fear of God. I have reconnected with the Infinite and Loving Divinity of the Universe, along with my Shamanic Ancestry.

Opposing the exhilaration and bliss of this time, I have cold heartily had to look at my reoccurring self defeating patterns and behaviours, once again. Consequently, making bold changes and having to reconstruct my values and belief system. Ive experienced loneliness on levels most individuals would not encounter, but better yet confront. Thus far, the anointment Saturn has poured over me with Maturity, has been the most internally rewarding time of my life.

I am looking forward to finishing off this cosmic cycle during my 29th birthday. Just like all cycles, when the end is near and a new beginning will present itself. The Universe will never leave you empty handed, especially on your journey of evolving your Inner Divinity. 29 will be a Master year for me (2+9=11). Eleven, twenty-two and thirty-three are all Master Numbers. I am hoping it will be the supporting catalyst I am looking for, bring me closer to my Purpose within the Healing Arts. Please leave a comment about your own personal experience, or feel free to inquiry about your own Saturn Return inquests.

I take steps in the dark, holding the hand of Faith, as I  work through my shadows. It Continually brings me closer to my Home – which is Love.